FHH Update 11-9-2016 (fuuuuck)

Hey y’all. I’m sorry for the weird schedule. I know this website has been pretty inconsistent ever since I started school in September. It’s been stressful for me because I started about a month late, and college apps really aren’t fun. That’s not really a good excuse tho since I’m already in the second quarter of my school year. Things haven’t been going too well for me tho. It doesn’t seem like they’ve been going well for anyone. I probably should’ve given y’all an update a while ago, and I don’t really know why I didn’t to be honest. There’s just so much shit I have to tell y’all. First of all, let’s get the obvious shit outta the way. The 45th president of the United States of America is… Donald “You Have To Take Out Their Families” Trump. Yeah. I don’t know why I’m acting like this is breaking news. You guys already know he’s been elected. I… I really don’t know what to say. It’s like, there’s so much for me to say, but at the same time I’m speechless. I’m not sad tho. I was at first. Well… That’s a whole other problem… Fuck. Alright, this is kinda random, but just keep reading y’all. I’m gonna bring this shit full circle. When I was in middle school I was diagnosed with severe clinical depression. It hasn’t really been a problem in high school; I’ve been handling it with over the counter shit. A few weeks ago it got really bad tho. That’s why I haven’t been writing anything. A lot of the shit you’ve been reading lately has been written for a long ass time. I’m getting better tho. I’m seeing a psychiatrist now and I’m on a new medication, which I think might be working. This is probably just a coincidence, but I didn’t even notice how depressed I was until around the time when Kid Cudi publicly announced that he was checking into a rehabilitation center for suicidal thoughts. I’m not suicidal by the way. You don’t really need to worry about me. Anyway, that’s why I haven’t been writing shit. I’ve just been feeling like shit for the past few weeks. That election tho… That shit was rough. But, like I said on Twitter, this is what fucking happens when the weak ass democrats choose a corrupt establishment monster like Hillary Clinton. Hillary Clinton was literally the worst possible choice for a presidential candidate to run against Donald Trump. This two party system doesn’t fucking work. Nobody fucking likes Hillary Clinton. There’s literally zero reason to like her. If you ask anyone why they voted for her, they’ll tell you that they just didn’t want Donald Trump to win. I’m upset about this shit. I’m mad now tho. I was sad as fuck when the results came out. I couldn’t believe it. I don’t know why. I don’t know why I was surprised that Hillary couldn’t win. You can’t inspire voters by threatening them. You can’t scare people into voting for you. “I’m With Her.” No. Nobody is with Hillary Clinton. ZERO people like her. Nobody was ever with Hillary Clinton, who calls Muslims “sand niggers.” They just weren’t with Donald Trump either. Hillary wouldn’t have been a good president. She really wouldn’t have. Sure, she would’ve been better than Trump, but who wouldn’t? I’m not gonna worry about Trump too much. If anything I’m just looking forward to the next election even more. Don’t fuck this primary up again. Anyway, my dad lost his job. Lol. Yeah. I’m fucked. He was running for re-election as a district court judge in Durham, North Carolina. I think I’m gonna be fine tho. I think. Well, I really don’t know what’s gonna happen. I’m not worrying about it too much tho. The election was literally the worst case scenario for me. It’s fine tho. I’m fine. I mean, I’m not, but I don’t really care. I’m just not really upset. Like, it’s so bad that I literally feel nothing right now. It’s the good kinda numbness tho. It’s not that I don’t care about anything. I just don’t feel like being sad about this shit right now. I’m looking forward to the future. I know the future is gonna suck with Trump as the president, but I’m looking forward to fighting for what I think is right. Man, that sounded corny. It’s true tho. I don’t know why I’m not sad. I guess I’m just tired of being depressed right now. If Bernie Sanders was the candidate and he still lost, THEN I’d be fucking depressed. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I’m still gonna need these antidepressants. This election isn’t the reason tho. So yeah. How do y’all feel about the election? My friends are terrified. Well, my woke white & non-white friends are terrified. I don’t know if I consider my non-woke acquaintances to be my friends. But yeah, my friends are absolutely horrified. I get it tho. I should be horrified. I was for a day. I’m just over it at this point tho. I thought I’d be the most upset. Seeing all my other friends be so scared and depressed just makes me not wanna be like that anymore. It’s weird. Anyway, what else was I gonna say to y’all? Hmm… Oh yeah… I’m thinking about changing the name of this website. Again. I know. It’ll be the third (and a half) time that I change the name. I’m tired of having white kids laugh in my face when I tell them the name of my website tho. Also, it makes it seem like the only important aspect of black culture is Hip Hop. I don’t know enough about black culture to be running a website with this title. Oh yeah; I almost forgot the most obvious problem with the name… This isn’t a TV channel. I originally called it Black Culture TV because I was gonna post more videos. That was a dumb idea tho. If y’all have any suggestions for a new web address lemme know. I’m thinking about iLikeHipHop.com. I might not even change it tho. Lemme know what you think. Also, I’m getting a microphone soon. I still don’t really know what I’m gonna do with it tho. I might be making YouTube videos… I don’t know what they’re gonna be tho. Should I just do a podcast? That’ll be hard without a co-host… I’m planning a road trip with some of my friends; should I make a vlog? I’m not really good with cameras… Eh. Fuck it. I’m sure I’ll figure something out. Anyway… Follow me on Twitter @OGNickMarsh. I have a snapchat too, but I barely ever use it. Still follow me tho…

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  1. There’s a Curtis Mayfield joint from 1970 called “(Don’t Worry) If There’s A Hell Below” (later was sampled by NWA for the title song of the EFIL4ZAGGIN album) that eeriely sounds appropriate for what’s going on in our world today.

    All I can say is now is the time for Blacks, Latinos, Middle Eastern Americans, LGBTQ etc. To rise as one because the way things are going we might as well be speaking Russian soon and going down the same path Germany did in the days of Adolf….

    Peace young blood

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