FHH Update 1-23-2020

Hi. I’m back. So, as you guys know, shit got really bad. I was having suicidal thoughts every day and was self harming again. I felt numb whenever people told me they cared about me. I literally felt like I was stuck in a cave with no way out. However, I decided to check myself into a psychiatric ward on January 11th and spent 8 days there. My medication has been adjusted and now I’m an outpatient, and I’m legitimately really happy. Getting help was the best decision I’ve made in a long time. I genuinely can’t believe how happy I am. I never thought I’d be this happy. I feel like I’ve never felt this way before. I’m just happy for no reason. I’m glad I’m alive. I care about stuff again, so I’m gonna start being active again. To that one guy who told me to stop feeling sorry for myself and review the new Joyner Lucas project, I hope you get testicular gangrene. I’m probably never gonna cover Joyner Lucas ever again just because of that. Anyway, I have a lot of ideas and feel more motivated now than I have in a long time, so stay tuned. The day of reckoning is coming.

Be sure to follow me on Twitter and on IG to stay up to date on everything I’m doing. I have a quick question though… So, I’ve been wanting to post my top 15 albums of 2020, but there are still a handful of records that I need to listen to because I have a feeling they’ll creep into the list and I don’t wanna leave them out. Should I just post my current list or can you guys wait a bit longer for me to catch up on releases I may have missed? Let me know. Thank you guys for reading by the way. This blog is my life, and even if nobody read my shit I would still do it, but it’s always nice when people thank me for putting them on to lesser known artists. So yeah, ya boi is back.

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OG NICK MARSH

My blog was started in 2014 as a means of personal expression. When attempting to understand my taste and opinions, one may benefit from considering that I am a left-leaning biracial Indo-Caribbean & African American cisgender heterosexual man who was born in North Carolina in 1998.

9 responses to “FHH Update 1-23-2020”

Anonymous

25 January 2021

Glad to hear you found happiness in life again
as long as we eventually get the list, do what you prefer🙏🏻

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tyler

23 January 2021

Also, you made me awhere of Big $ilky, so thanks for that.

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tyler

23 January 2021

Glad to know you’re doing better! Your health should come first. Still waiting on the Nas review for his latest project lol. In all seriousness though, I’m really happy to see you back. You’re like the only guy, aside from SoupDude who actually writes written reviews and feels like a person unlike something like Pitchfork. Stay awesome.

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1. OG NICK MARSH
  
  23 January 2021
  
  Thank you so much man! And yes, that Nas album is of course still on the list
  
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  1. tyler
    
    23 January 2021
    
    I wish there were more writing reviewers like you. I found like one other one years ago, but I can’t find him again. I actually found you when I was searching to see if there were any written reviews of The Game’s Documentary2/2.5. tYour blog, in addition to getting me to check out Big $ilky (thanks for that one), also made me really get into Tech N9ne after only really hearing about him but not listening to him. Thanks.
    
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ai.0ly

23 January 2021

You do you man. You should definitely check out Benny the Butcher’s latest album with Hit-Boy at some point, but I’m just glad you’re back and motivated.

Your blog’s helped introduce me to a lot of great artists and enhanced my perspective on music in general, so thanks a bunch dude

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1. OG NICK MARSH
  
  23 January 2021
  
  That Benny album is definitely on the list, and thanks for reading man!
  
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Spaceman Jones

23 January 2021

Post what you wanna. Its your idea, flesh it out.

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CrisSayago

23 January 2021

If you want to publish the stuff you’ve already listened to.

That’s fine by me.

But ultimately it’s up to you big dog

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