Hi. So, right now is a crazy time to be a Hip Hop fan, and a lot of discussion is happening about the allegations against both Kendrick and Drake. If you haven’t already watched my videos about Family Matters and meet the grahams, be sure to check them out and leave a comment telling me what you think. Anyway, something just happened to me. I don’t know where to begin. I’ll start by saying this: I’ve been listening to meet the grahams a lot since it came out, and it really hasn’t lost any of its impact. To be completely honest, it hits me harder now than it did when it first came out. I don’t know how long this post is about to be, but this is something that I have to do for myself. People who know me well or who have paid attention know that I was diagnosed with PTSD because I was molested when I was six years old. It’s not something that I am shouting from the rooftops, but it’s not exactly something I’ve been keeping a secret, at least since 2018. I know you’re probably wondering where I’m going with this, but just bear with me. Well, maybe it’s obvious. There’s been a lot of talk about pedophilia going around, so it’s forced me to think about it. I’ve felt numb and like I’ve been on autopilot for at least the past three months. My first reaction to meet the grahams was “this is the best diss track I’ve ever heard in my life.” I have listened to it over ten times in the past day. However, my latest listening experience was different. The two before it gave me kind of an uneasy feeling, but I kind of pushed those emotions away. On my latest listen, I finally gave into those feelings.

Give him grace, this the reason I made Mr. Morale
So our babies like you can cope later
Give you some confidence to go through somethin', it's hope later

When I heard these lines just now, I completely broke down. I don’t know why it didn’t hit me until now. I just cried harder than I’ve cried in at least three years. Maybe even longer. As I’m writing this, I’m still crying. I’m not just crying, I am sobbing. This is the first time this has happened to me. I don’t cry often. A song has never brought me to tears until now. My favorite Kendrick Lamar song, Mother I Sober, made my eyes well up a little bit the first time I heard it, but that’s pretty much it. This is why I have an issue with my favorite rapper of all time, Lupe Fiasco, discrediting Kendrick’s lyrical ability. I think Lupe Fiasco doesn’t understand the importance of emotional impact when it comes to lyricism. As I said on Twitter recently, a lot of Hip Hop fans equate technicality with top notch lyricism. Don’t get me wrong, technical skill is important. It’s not the be-all and end-all of brilliant writing though. I don’t think I will ever forget the moment I just had. I no longer feel numb. I am not in therapy and have never really unpacked what happened to me as a child, so I’m not used to dealing with all these emotions this way. Even now, fifty minutes after I started sobbing, I have a gigantic grimace on my face. I don’t even know what the overall point I want you all to take from this post is. I just had to tell somebody.

You need to know that love is eternity and trumps all pain

It hurts so fucking much. I don’t even know what else to say. I am in shambles right now. This is the most visceral reaction I’ve ever had to any music. I don’t know how I’ll feel tomorrow, but right now if you were to ask me what my favorite song of all time is, I would say meet the grahams by Kendrick Lamar. Hopefully you understand why after everything I’ve just told you. Thank you for reading.